(23) Gunfights

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For those paying attention to how my number these, just ignore it for now. There’s this system I have and a lot of work went into the original system, but with the way how life is working out right now, I can’t find the time to properly rearrange everything, so the original system will have to do for now.

I may change things in the future, but we’ll cross that bridge when we get there.


So gunfights.

I don’t know if you can tell but I don’t draw guns often, I’m more of an RPG weapons kind of gal. So you can imagine my struggle when I saw this prompt.

I knew for one thing, whatever gun I drew up will be extremely basic, so I knew it couldn’t be a gun-centric imagine. Besides if I don’t draw guns often, how much better would the gun action poses look. Overall, the creative juices weren’t plenty.

Then brainstorming branched out on a tangent, of how I can really play around with this concept since the “badass route” had nothing but roadblocks. I decided to play on the aggressive nature of guns, but instead of your usual bullets and oozy liquids, how about compliments?

I saw this thing on Twitter a couple of months ago, and it was just someone threatening a buddy of their’s with love and affection. It when along the lines of, “Nothing’s going to stop me from sending my love and affection your way so square up!” It was super off-putting, but at the same time you couldn’t help but feel flattered. (And don’t worry, it was a wholesome exchange, no danger there) Honestly, I found it hilarious and oddly wholesome and endearing.

With that in mind, I tied it back to this prompt. Pairing wholesome compliments for your loved ones with the aggressive imagery of guns. It’s a weird pairing, I still can’t wrap my head around it, but it’s done now. This is now a thing.

That being said take the time to tell your loved ones how much they mean to you. With or without the intense enthusiasm, your call.

… No matter how many times I play with the idea in my head, this is still a weird match up. But anywho!

That’s all for now, talk to you guys next time!

(16.7) Courage: Reaching Out


Reaching out.

For some people, it’s second nature. For others, it’s anxiety-inducing.

What will people think? What will they say? Will they see me as broken? Will they laugh at me? Will they even care? What if they just make me feel worse? What could they possibly say to change any of this?

Those are just some of the many thoughts that could possibly be running through your head when you consider opening up to someone about your inner demons.

You don’t know what they’ll say. There’s no way to predict what they’ll even do.

It may take a couple of times to open up to people because sometimes you have to find the right person to open up to. But once you do, you’ll regret why you haven’t done it sooner.

From my personal experiences, I was content solving my problems on my own.

During the most emotional parts of my life, I was able to get through it with my own willpower. So naturally I began to think, why would I need someone else. And in my defence, the couple of time I did choose to talk to someone else it always resulted in me feeling worse than before. Instead of easing the pain they piled on some new anxieties, so of course, that would discourage me from opening up in the future. Why make myself vulnerable when people will only hurt me more?

But as time went on, my inner turmoil became worse, and it became too much for me to carry on my own. The willpower and my self-created positivity were no longer working, and other options started to look better to me.

So I tried to do something I was afraid of doing. I was desperate, and I knew I couldn’t trust myself to get out of this mess anymore.

So I decided to talk to someone. I was super vague and downplayed a lot of my worries, but that was as much as I could even get out of myself before breaking down. And to my surprise, it helped me a lot. My head was clearer, and I could feel a literal weight being lifted off my chest and shoulders. They helped me out a lot. For the most part, all they did was listen, but I guess I justed needed someone just to be there for me. Maybe I just needed to know that despite all the things going wrong in my life, there was still someone out there who loves me just because I’m me. They see that I’m trying and they’re proud of me. They want nothing but the best for me. And knowing someone loves me like that is enough for me to get back up again.

Opening up is scary. I’m still not used to it, as a reflex, I’m ready to start sobbing before even getting a single word out. But it definitely helps. And just because one encounter ended up poorly, don’t let that discourage you from trying again. Because there is someone out there that will listen to you and care about the troubles that plague your mind. You’ll be alright.

So the wonderful week of courage has come to a close!

Definitely a lot bigger of a project than what I was expecting. But I do not regret a single moment of it!

It was also fun exploring the different types of courage out there. We’re so used to physical acts of courage that we forget that every day we’re being courageous. So applaud yourself! Because it really does take a toll on you when you step out of your comfort zone.

I hope you all enjoyed this week, and if it was the dash of wholesome you needed to make your day then I couldn’t be happier.

Well, that’s all for now.

Until next time you cool cats!

(16.6) Courage: Face With Failure


Those familiar with grinding and hustling will understand that you will face a lot of failures to achieve success. There’s nothing wrong with that, that is literally what the process is. But sometimes during that grind, you’ll hit wall after wall, and when you look back you can’t help but notice all those failures.

It’s overwhelming. The sight of all those failures can cloud your better judgment and push you into a downward spiral of self-doubt. And those moments where all those failures are laid out in front of you can be soul crushing. It can make you lose all motivation. Suddenly you no longer feel as if you’re invincible. You’re not as great as you once thought you were.

How can you even dare stand up at that point?

But sometimes that’s all you have to do. Stand up again.

Remember your self-worth and all your qualities that make up the wonderful individual that you are. So get back up and show the world what you’re made of because, with every failure you face, you’re also growing into a better version of yourself.

Keep at it! Don’t even think of giving up!

This has definitely been something I have learned over time. I can be impatient, and I want to see myself succeed. So when things aren’t going my way as fast as I would like it to, of course, there will be doubts. But if I give up now, then those dreams are as good as gone, so I knew giving up wasn’t an option. And with every wall, I faced I learned something more about myself and grew into a better version of myself.

As much as failure sucks, it’s definitely necessary.

And it’s not too bad, especially if you know how to get back up again.

That’s all for now! See you tomorrow for the last installment!

(16.5) Courage: Letting Go


All of us have probably experienced this at least once in our lives.

Caring so much about someone who just doesn’t seem to care about you.

Giving so much of your time and attention to someone who is nothing but toxic in your life.

It takes a while to see it because you’re so invested in making that person happy, making that person like you, so you can imagine how much courage it takes to finally let that person go and say, “You’re not worth having in my life.”

It’s scary. You get thoughts like, they stuck by me for so long, will I ever find someone who will put up with me?

And that answer is yes. There are so many people out there who will and do genuinely care about your well being, want to see you happy, cheer you on, and who will give the world just to see you smile.

Those people are out there, and you just have to have the courage to let go and find those people you deserve.

This is also a lot easier said than done, but it is possible. Look out for the signs, and keep yourself safe.

This one was definitely more on the darker side of courage, with the imagery and the concept in general. It’s especially heavy for me personally because I have experienced it before. Those people meant the world to me, I did everything I could to make them happy. But when I finally realized the I wasn’t getting anything in return it honestly broke my heart. I was devastated. I blamed myself for a while, but after reaching out to someone else they helped me realized those people before weren’t worth my time, and that I could do so much better.

Now I’m in a lot better place, surrounded by people who love me and want to see me succeed. And I have never had so much confidence in my life before. So it’s great to know, it does get better.

That’s all for today, see you tomorrow!